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F12.30 M20
Sa12.31 M40 Mp
S1.1 M40
M1.2 M40 Mp
T1.3 M10
W1.4
Th1.5
F1.6
TARGET: Mcu30*7, AS*5
Sa1.7
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Lu1.9
Mar1.10 20M YcA2
Mer1.11 20M
Gi1.12 30M YcA2
Ve1.13 10M Kb
Sa1.14 30M Kb J4
Do1.15
Lu1.16 YcA2
Mar1.17 20M
Mer1.18 20M YcA2
Gi1.19
Ve1.20 10M
Sa1.21
Do1.22
Lu1.23
Mar1.24
Mer1.25 YcA2
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Lu1.30
Mar1.31
Mer2.1 YcA2
Gi2.2
Ve2.3 20M Kb
Sa2.4
Do2.5 90M_hl ob: Doing a terrible job of keeping track. New commitments this week to (1) no more than one meal with meat per week (2) no more than one alchoholic beverage per week (3) one day (24hrs) of fasting per week. Will attempt to record the day upon which this happened. Also adding sitting style to record.
Lu2.6
Mar2.7
Mer2.8 20M
Gi2.9 20M YcP2
Ve2.10 20M
Sa2.11 20M YcP2
Do2.12 20M
Lu2.13 20M YcA2
Mar2.14 20M
Mer2.15 20M
Gi2.16 30M YcP2
Ve2.17 30M
Sa2.18 35M
Do2.19
L2.20 20M YcP2
M2.21 35M
Me2.22 50M
ob:
Procrastination, sources and resolutions:
General process "Stress" triggers meltdown, despondency, then later rebound after a period of depression -- assuming that there is an absolute deadline which must be met, otherwise, there is no clear regrouping. Us. there is some dissolving of daily habits, which serves as a warning of sorts. At some point, there is a period of obsessive computer game playing and serial mast. which may continue for several days. Generally speaking, there are no breaks except for food and the process continues until complete exhaustion.
The first trigger seems to be the necessity of completing a large undesirable task. Small undesirable tasks may be procrastinated on, but large undesirable tasks seem to trigger a larger reaction, perhaps because they must be grappled with. One possible "solution" is to "drug" oneself with caffine and place oneself in a place where one has little choice except to work on the project in question (e.g. a cafe), and where other people are working.
A potential secondary solution is to segment the work. This involves the creation of an outline and the ability to work on different portions each day.
Once triggered, the "procrastination" urge is extremely strong and make take any number of unaware and negative objects. Be wary.
2.24 20M
ob: more or less recovered without slipping into depressive state, although without enough energy to pursue other things. Excess sexual energy controlling throughts seems to be somewhat subdued also, at least as compared to the last two days which were incredibly dissolute. Will need to make a second serious attempt, but will probably wait until next Monday.
Slacking a bit on meat resolution, as there are additional dishes with tiny bits of meat that I have been eating. Have not fasted yet this week, I think i will do a fruit juice fast of sorts today.
Need to journal seems increased when the routine is in threat of being broken, which usually only happens after it is already broken somewhat (happening without realization), and then when the realization is realized.
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3.13 once again a serious lapse..