不惑

夸越子论不惑年
瞭望前后邹此天
二十潜龙伏地用
首起十年仰大人
修诸博文而立足
这年三爻点到户
终日乾乾建根本
欲立门户多见闻
信访各地参寺部
六十文章为自试
天干地枝到不惑
欲跃过渊必离群
修养神魂添魄力
飞龙在天跃龙门
心有忐忑信不足
但愿一跳远卧坑
鹏鸟击水三千里
自建风卷九千里
为离北冥奔南池
- 06/04/18

Commentary: Forty years old is an important age in Confucius’ views as it represents the age where one is stable in his own stand and views. This comes ten years after establishing one’s learnings at the age of 30. At 30 years old, I was conferred my doctorate and spent 10 years building up my academic profile. Now nearing 40, I have more than 60 publications under my belt to prove myself. However, I am also tired and reaching the point of burnt out. The next step in front of me is huge – it is crossing a chasm. In some sense, I am feeling inadequate to take the leap at this point. Yet, I know that I do have to leap in time to come – I cannot cross is 2 small leaps. I must prepare myself – like the mythical bird that needs circle the winds to create a typhoon of nine thousand miles high so that its huge wings can be supported for it from soar from the North Sea to the South Sea.